Feeling very FREE today…
Feeling very FREE today. It’s like there are an infinite number of possibilities laying in wait for me to find and all I have to do is open my eyes and surrender to what lies ahead. It’s all up to me and while in the past this thought would have caused me considerable angst, today it is a source of celebration within me.
I’ve been paying attention to my reactions to the world around me and my relationships with the people in it. My way of dealing with people has changed. It is much more accepting and allowing AND I am not taking things personally anymore. Now that is a master feat if ever there was one.
From where I sit now I understand how debilitating it can be to always assume that what is going on around you is personal. It might look personal from one standpoint but consider being at the other end of someone else’s anger. Take my father and my relationship for example.
For most of my life the number one word that would come up EVERY TIME I would describe my Father was ANGER. I always thought that it was something I did that reminded him of someone else because I could never understand how he could be so angry at me constantly. I finally convinced myself that he must look at me and remember something from his past – something that set him off because it certainly wasn’t me most of the time. My reactions were always the same and it was emotionally, mentally, and physically draining.
One of my most recent life lessons brought this back to me. I dealt with this similar issue recently with another Soul and the way I have handled it this time is so much more freeing and I just want to give thanks. For bringing this to my attention one more time because NOW this time, I finally get it.
It is NOT me. It is something going on within these other Souls, something that is so deep and wounded that even I realize that I can not change their attitudes or beliefs. I can, however change mine and that is what has happened.
I finally realize that it is not up to me to save every Soul that crosses my Path. I can shine my LIGHT because that is what I do and allow them to glean whatever wisdom they are meant to gain through their own interactions with me. It’s all about the evolution of the Soul.
My Dear Old Angry Dad is not so angry these days or at least it doesn’t come out that often anymore when in MY presence. He stopped scaring me and intimidating me long ago and now, that he is frail and almost 90 years old I understand how he must feel. The difference now is that I do not have to fall into any trap of believing that I need to be the brunt of his anger when it does surface now and then, and believe me, it does surface.
I now feel perfectly comfortable removing myself from his presence when he starts to get angry. I don’t try to defuse the situation. I do not take it personally. I DO let him know what I will and will not stand for in my relationship with him NOW. It seems to be working…………smile
And now today, after a day of deep cleansing rains which we sorely needed, I feel refreshed and cleansed and ready to get on with the next stage of this journey that I am on.
I trust ME and that is a big BIG deal.
I wish you all a day of freedom, joy and divine inspiration.
Namaste.